Eastenders made me cry

It's just the most emotional storyline, and very, very sad. It made me think about my own situation and whether I would ever have a child myself one day. Part of me thinks I shouldn't even go there as I don't feel like I could cope with looking after a child right now or maybe not ever. It's a little bit odd really, having children is almost part of why we are here, it's what we do. We get married, we have a family. Are you complete if you never have children? I guess that comes down to how you feel.... I can't quite pinpoint how I feel though, I'm just waiting to get my own life back on track and then hopefully start really enjoying life to the full. Will I want to give that up in a short time so I could have children? Time is running out as far as my physical body is concerned, but you can't make that a reason for having a child. Besides, you need to have two willing parents to be and I'm not sure the Boyf wants that. I do think adoption later in life could be a very real option but there again, that is not an easy path to take. It's a long process and I imagine expensive too. Oh well, back to taking one day at a time then. It's all you can do sometimes.